A teacher just told me recently that I have good interpersonal skills, as I am a very appreciative person. I must say I that really appreciate the people around me for the little things they did that have a positive impact on my life.

I will go to the extent to buy or make little thank you cards for them to acknowledge their gesture. It really warms my heart if I can make a person happy. And with that, I have never failed to extend my help to those in need sincerely. I am always willing to run errands for friends, or go the extra mile to comfort a friend.

However, I just realised that for every single things that I do for others, be it for individuals or not, many, are not being appreciated. Not even with a PROPER thanks. Then, I felt myself being stupid and used. It is a bit draining for me, as I have high expectations for myself when I do things. If I really ensured that the things I did was done from the bottom of my heart, till I could even afford to let my own health be in jeapordy, then, I would expect people to appreciate my efforts. It's not as if that I am not being sincere in doing it.

It's just that, right now, I am feeling sick and tired. Disgusted by how humans have programmed their brains to think as "I, ME and MYSELF" only.

Oh wells, it's not too bad is it to have your brain programmed like that. After all, selfish people seems to be happier. With that programmed brain of theirs, they are able to be manipulative in ensuring the limelight is on them. Claiming all the credits and boast to the world "Hey! I did those works!", and listen to the whole world applauding and cheering for them. Cool eh?!

harangued at 10:53 PM